The Flow of Self - Part 3

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Andrew's Previous Response:

And so, to me, this is a truth within a subreality... harm to one is harm to all. Here's a question I have toward that question or "truth". What if I'm the one being harmed? I may be forced to harm to stop the pain I'm in, which you address below. Also, if we really cracked open the word "harm", it would be almost impossible to avoid "harming" others. If I walk on the grass, there may be harm done. If I eat the last bite of food for my own "survival", I may be denying an entire village. Well, that's an extreme example, but it could happen in some sense.

Alex's Second Response:

I agree, it is a sub-reality. But one I am definitely within. :) And I believe it is one that is serving my fullest expression/purpose. Somehow my Bigger Me is using this as a way of making it tangible that I don't have to hold on "for dear life", and to do that it needs to make me aware of others, so that I can let-go of myself that little bit more. And in letting-go of myself, more, find myself more :)

Regarding the second part, yes, I agree it could be very tricky ascertaining the levels of harm done. But taken in a very rough way, clearly if humans consciously avoided harming 90% of what gets harmed at this time in human history, it would be noticed! It isn't so much avoiding harm, but the implications behind it, that we are connected.

This is a counter-thought for me from my Bigger Being: I was previously operating in a very me first way. I still am, but my concept of me is different, now. I assume my Bigger Me is giving me this exploration for my own purposeful unfolding.

Andrew's Current Response:

I agree that we are in a sub-reality. There ARE sub-realities within sub-realities within sub-realities within sub-realities. My, all of me, is wanting to understand these sub-realities and be VERY AWARE of them so that I can deliberately and consciously make meaningful decisions about the ones I WANT to participate within, and free myself from any that I have inadvertently become a slave to.

For example, what I know about how MY body works (not including anyone else there), is that it is VERY different from what science, or matrix energetics, or religion, or whoever teaches. From my direct experience and connection to me, I'm getting the results I WANT, that I never got through any other means, including martial arts and chi and meditation.

Continuing an example along those lines. My parents have beliefs about teeth. Several months ago, my parents sat down and were trying to reinstall their sub-reality about teeth. Without listening to me, without acknowledging my beliefs or "reality", they were attempting a hostile take over, which most humans engage in without being aware of it. My dad at one point said, "Don't your teeth ever just ache or hurt?" My flow put my hand over my mouth and I said, "Nope. They're my teeth." He was psychically projecting a reality where teeth decay and are injured and have no ability or propensity to repair themselves.

I disagreed with their sub-reality. A few days later, my dad was pissed, talking about how his teeth were now hurting. He created an aggressive purposeful thought form, and when I didn't take it or accept it, it had to return to its owner. He has no belief in reality creation or thought space, but I watched him do it. I was aware of him doing it while it was happening, even though he is completely unaware of it.

The reality underneath the sub-realities.


Andrew's Previous Response:

b) To me it comes down to intent. It's not about the actions or the perceived created circumstances. It's about the reason and motivation behind those things. A person can smile and hug me and greet me warmly, to lure me into my death. A person can scream and yell at me, even kick and punch me, to save my life. So, the only "choice" of action, (this is a subtle statement, CHOICE OF ACTION, not choice), the only "choice" of action I have is to connect with me, and follow myself, even if the resulting "actions" and "circumstances" would be labled as wrong or bad or evil by everyone else. I believe, this is what you are calling "letting-go".

I'm not operating from a perspective of... I want this... how do I get this... then I must do this to get this...

Alex's Second Response:

I stuck a, b, and c in there to make my response easier to follow.

b) funny stuff, this past Christmas a family friend who is about my age or so, who I have always been cool with but has recently over the past couple years been a douche to me. (I think he was jealous my girlfriend was so perfect, and I work so very little. He's the type to get any girl, and I just hoodwinked him and got the best one, while doing nothing for it. I suspect this grated at him)
So on Christmas, he was at my Aunt's house, as he is friends with my cousins, and I was saying hi to him. He shook my hand and said something like, "Your hands are so soft, it's probably because you haven't worked in ages".

Intent! Someone could say that to me as a joke or whatever, and I'd laugh with them. But his intent was to put himself up on some lofty awesome level, in front of his girlfriend, who I'd never seen before. for all I know this was to impress her.

So I let-go, and took that right hand (he was commenting on its softness) and slapped him "WACK" in the side of the face. And then I just walked off to talk to my Dad, lol. This was like 15 minutes before Christmas dinner. Hehe. I don't advocate violence, in general, but some people apparently only relate to macho-ness.

I saw him this past weekend, and it was all good, lol. It seems to have worked :) Letting-go for the win again!

Andrew's Current Response:

You gave him what he was demanding. All violence begins with a demand. The demander is violent. He was demanding you submit. You said NO in a language he could understand from his current perspective. Some demanders (violent beings) can only hear you when you kill them.

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The Process of Communiation - Part 1

Notice the escalation levels the cat goes through.



Notice that the kitten doesn't care what the intentions of its loving owners are. It's operating out of perceived reality.

The Flow of Self - Part 2

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Andrew's Previous Response:

I can be Andrew without others. I EXIST. Prime knovium. However, this state my get a little boring after awhile, possibly, because, well, hmmm... essences, but this isn't the time or place to discuss those.

I agree with your last statement about needing plants for air. Yes, but this is only true within the physical context we are currently in. In my ultimate context, I do not need air, or food, or clothes. In fact, I don't really "need" clothes here, it's just a courtesy to others. This is why I'm really advocating communication, because I do believe we need to start listening and respecting one another so we can learn to live in harmony as a family on this planet we find ourselves. However, you are still you, and I am still me. I, in my perspective, and experience, find that there is no ultimate One. There is not an ultimate Bigger Self that encapsulates all other Bigger Selves.

Now... within my Bigger Self there are other distinct personalities. One, for example, is my next lifetime. In my next lifetime, I remember this one, and directly (physically) and indirectly interact with my previous lifetime (this one), which has happened already, and will probably happen again. There is a Bigger Self to my most direct Bigger Self that is a highly female personality. Delicious. I love me. LOL.

I understand what you are saying about hurting another hurts all. If I pollute the air or water, I hurt all. Yes, that is true within the physical context. That is not necessarily true within the core reality. I agree that my life is connected to all other beings that have directly and indirectly interacted with my life, which really includes everyone on the planet today, and all beings in the past, and future... but... I EXIST. I AM CONSCIOUSNESS. I exist outside this physical life time. My personality exists outside this physical time and space. I EXIST. So, really this connection you are speaking of is concerned with the physical circumstances of our lives, but not the internal reality of our existence. A subtle different, I admit.

Alex Responded Back:

I knew you would snag me on the fact that the point sI made were only true within the physical context! :)

I didn't mean to imply you needed clothes or anything in particular, but to imply that your life has been shaped by forces outside your normal idea of self. And that then in the physical at least, we are being effected by everything. A war in some far off country is effecting me, here now.

Andrew's Current Response:

And so, to me, this is a truth within a subreality... harm to one is harm to all. Here's a question I have toward that question or "truth". What if I'm the one being harmed? I may be forced to harm to stop the pain I'm in, which you address below. Also, if we really cracked open the word "harm", it would be almost impossible to avoid "harming" others. If I walk on the grass, there may be harm done. If I eat the last bite of food for my own "survival", I may be denying an entire village. Well, that's an extreme example, but it could happen in some sense.


Andrew's Previous Response:

I prefer to keep myself. I like Who I AM. Even if this Andrew Wilcox personality is simply a toy of my Bigger Self, then my Bigger Self really likes to play with this toy. However, in my flow, and in my connection, and in my understanding and acceptance of Who I AM, this distinction is growing thin. I'm not concerned with becoming One with everything that's "out there". There's a lot "out there" that I don't like. There are individual personalities and bigger beings that are my sworn enemies (Choices are choices. Consciousness can choose to be an enemy, can choose to seek to harm another.) It took me a long time to face this fact, because it wasn't the "best feeling thought". My Bigger Self went round and round with me on this. It brought me experience, understanding, knowledge, evidence, until I had to face it, and when I did, my shoulder finally healed. Ok, details.

I have directly personal experience that Abraham was setting intentions against me. And, these intentions were manifesting as pain within my shoulder. And, this pain would flare up any time I tired to "connect" with Who I AM, thus keeping me in a cycle of disconnection. Now, how did this happen? By choosing to believe that Abraham was who they claim to be (i.e. highest whatever), then I am indirectly saying they get to create my reality, which means I am indirectly agreeing to any and all intentions they set toward me. This was NOT easy to face. I didn't believe. I couldn't believe it. BUT, I have the personal, physical life experience that is undeniable to me. Can I prove it to anyone else? No, but I can now point out contradictions and errors in their teachings that others might find useful, so I do. When I faced what my Bigger Self was telling me, when I agreed with ME, my shoulder healed, very quickly, because I was able to finally remove the thoughts forms inserted there, and allow it to return to its natural state.

Alex Responded Back:

I'm not concerned with becoming One with everything out there either. To be clear. There is plenty I don't like either, hehe.

Andrew's Current Response:

That's good, because people needing that will never be one with me. LOL.


Andrew's Previous Response:

I love me. I can define this individual personality as a collection of personal preferences. ME, the all of me, may like to put this personality on once in awhile and take a stroll around the block. There are only things Andrew Wilcox can experience, because of who Andrew Wilcox is, and was, and will be.

Alex Responded Back:

I wanted to edit this line earlier before you responded. Too late :P

Let me elaborate on the REAL intent behind this and the above. When you know you are taken care of, when you are filled with appreciation for what is. Then for me I find a releasing of the holding onto needing to control things for ME. Things are already controlled for me anyway!

I'm not even a very "self-less" person in the classical sense.

I operate much like Marcel. I say please stop. If that doesn't work then I might yell. If that doesn't work I might have to get physical. I train traditional Shaolin Kungfu, where it is considered compassionate to break an arm, rather than maiming someone for life. So there are "levels" of benevolence. Hehe... My higher joy is for love of mankind. So even if I had to seriously hurt someone I wouldn't hold a grudge. I believe love is a powerful force much more powerful than "war" - literal and metaphorical. This however doesn't mean I won't bitchslap someone. I did that on Christmas actually. If we kill each other, torture each other, rape each other, we do it out of ignorance of the choice for something better. So, I'm always ready to return to love. Actually, if I seriously injure someone, I would do it with love in my heart. Seriously.

To me letting-go of needing to care for ME ME ME, expands my sense of happiness, because I find the more I let-go of the need to control, the more happy I am. It's under control anyway, of course by my Bigger Me.

Andrew's Current Response:

I agree with this, but put it into different words. I feel no need to try and "manifest" anything. I feel no need to try and "strive" with "effort" to achieve or accomplish anything. I feel no need to make or force my desires to happen. I'm here. I'm connected to me, and allowing that connection to deepen. All the rest is my Bigger Self's responsibility. I personally, still have desire, but my desire is to be ONE with myself, because I know that in that flow, and in that conversation, and in that connection, everything else will be there, already taken care of... which it is... already.

To me it comes down to intent. It's not about the actions or the perceived created circumstances. It's about the reason and motivation behind those things. A person can smile and hug me and greet me warmly, to lure me into my death. A person can scream and yell at me, even kick and punch me, to save my life. So, the only "choice" of action, (this is a subtle statement, CHOICE OF ACTION, not choice), the only "choice" of action I have is to connect with me, and follow myself, even if the resulting "actions" and "circumstances" would be labled as wrong or bad or evil by everyone else. I believe, this is what you are calling "letting-go".

I'm not operating from a perspective of... I want this... how do I get this... then I must do this to get this...

I'm just being here. I'm being me. I'm not worried about the outcomes. I don't actually care about the outcomes. I care about being ME within my joy right here, right now, because that moment of NOW is eternal. If I can learn to live in harmony with myself in that moment of now, I will always have everything, and never not have anything. In that self connection, in the moment of now, I AM. There is no gap. There is no separation. There's no where to "go", but there are endless circumstances that will change around me, according to my choices... great.


Andrew's Previous Response:

The more I let-go and allow ME to be ME and flow into ME, then yes, the better it gets. I have no intention or desire to let-go for others and their intentions and their desires, unless they are in alignment with Who I Am, and can share-the-bliss, so to speak. Not all beings and consciousness can, as is demonstrated on this planet.

Alex Responded Back:

I am not interested in letting-go "for others" or really for any purpose other than it seems to be the thing constantly pulling me.

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The Flow of Self - Part 1

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Alex Wrote:

The flow concept is one you have discussed a lot. I myself have my own form of flow.
If 'you' are not in control during flow (Which means almost all of the time nowadays, correct?) then I believe you say your Bigger You is in control. In my zen meditation I have had some experiences where I saw how *I* in the classical sense don't exist the way I thought I did. I saw myself much more enmeshed with everything else. I saw how the things I do to others can hurt them, and vice versa. It is hard to explain. But the point is, more than I have felt in a long time I saw the value in the concept of selflessness. To me selflessness isn't about being a sacrificial lamb or whatever, but about what I saw from my meditation, that my self is poorly defined ANYWAY. I know deliberate creators generally see their life as wholy THEIR CHOICE, so this is a bit different. I saw that I have the power to hurt the world or make it better. I saw that every little thing I do is effecting the whole. AND THAT MY WHOLE LIFE COULDN'T BE WHAT IT IS, without the effect of others. Think about it: how could you be Andrew without the rest of existences interaction with you every minute of every day. Without plants, you'd have no air, without farmers there'd be no food, without clothes makers, there'd be no clothes. So in a real way you are enmeshed with them.

Andrew Responds:

I can be Andrew without others. I EXIST. Prime knovium. However, this state my get a little boring after awhile, possibly, because, well, hmmm... essences, but this isn't the time or place to discuss those.

I agree with your last statement about needing plants for air. Yes, but this is only true within the physical context we are currently in. In my ultimate context, I do not need air, or food, or clothes. In fact, I don't really "need" clothes here, it's just a courtesy to others. This is why I'm really advocating communication, because I do believe we need to start listening and respecting one another so we can learn to live in harmony as a family on this planet we find ourselves. However, you are still you, and I am still me. I, in my perspective, and experience, find that there is no ultimate One. There is not an ultimate Bigger Self that encapsulates all other Bigger Selves.

Now... within my Bigger Self there are other distinct personalities. One, for example, is my next lifetime. In my next lifetime, I remember this one, and directly (physically) and indirectly interact with my previous lifetime (this one), which has happened already, and will probably happen again. There is a Bigger Self to my most direct Bigger Self that is a highly female personality. Delicious. I love me. LOL.

I understand what you are saying about hurting another hurts all. If I pollute the air or water, I hurt all. Yes, that is true within the physical context. That is not necessarily true within the core reality. I agree that my life is connected to all other beings that have directly and indirectly interacted with my life, which really includes everyone on the planet today, and all beings in the past, and future... but... I EXIST. I AM CONSCIOUSNESS. I exist outside this physical life time. My personality exists outside this physical time and space. I EXIST. So, really this connection you are speaking of is concerned with the physical circumstances of our lives, but not the internal reality of our existence. A subtle different, I admit.


Alex Wrote:

To me when I am in a flow state, I am not in control, I have let-go of expectation, in letting-go I am even letting-go of my self. Does that make sense? I know you are very self-oriented. Have you had any inklings that the boundaries of your self are different than what the normal person thinks they are? Do you see yourself as connected to the world intimately?

When you let-go in flow, do you let-go of the self, that you learned in life to defend?

Andrew Responds:

I prefer to keep myself. I like Who I AM. Even if this Andrew Wilcox personality is simply a toy of my Bigger Self, then my Bigger Self really likes to play with this toy. However, in my flow, and in my connection, and in my understanding and acceptance of Who I AM, this distinction is growing thin. I'm not concerned with becoming One with everything that's "out there". There's a lot "out there" that I don't like. There are individual personalities and bigger beings that are my sworn enemies (Choices are choices. Consciousness can choose to be an enemy, can choose to seek to harm another.) It took me a long time to face this fact, because it wasn't the "best feeling thought". My Bigger Self went round and round with me on this. It brought me experience, understanding, knowledge, evidence, until I had to face it, and when I did, my shoulder finally healed. Ok, details.

I have directly personal experience that Abraham was setting intentions against me. And, these intentions were manifesting as pain within my shoulder. And, this pain would flare up any time I tired to "connect" with Who I AM, thus keeping me in a cycle of disconnection. Now, how did this happen? By choosing to believe that Abraham was who they claim to be (i.e. highest whatever), then I am indirectly saying they get to create my reality, which means I am indirectly agreeing to any and all intentions they set toward me. This was NOT easy to face. I didn't believe. I couldn't believe it. BUT, I have the personal, physical life experience that is undeniable to me. Can I prove it to anyone else? No, but I can now point out contradictions and errors in their teachings that others might find useful, so I do. When I faced what my Bigger Self was telling me, when I agreed with ME, my shoulder healed, very quickly, because I was able to finally remove the thoughts forms inserted there, and allow it to return to its natural state.


Alex Wrote:

A final question:
If your life is deliberate, if life is taken care of, if you are letting-go, then what do you need the self for?

Andrew Responds:

I love me. I can define this individual personality as a collection of personal preferences. ME, the all of me, may like to put this personality on once in awhile and take a stroll around the block. There are only things Andrew Wilcox can experience, because of who Andrew Wilcox is, and was, and will be.


Alex Wrote:

Ok, I can see how this can be slightly confusing. Let me be more specific.

I am not suggesting becoming a doormat, lol. Just trying to express some experiences. The main one being that the more you let-go, the more you let-go, the more you let-go. Have you not noticed that the more you let-go, the better it gets?

Andrew Responds:

The more I let-go and allow ME to be ME and flow into ME, then yes, the better it gets. I have no intention or desire to let-go for others and their intentions and their desires, unless they are in alignment with Who I Am, and can share-the-bliss, so to speak. Not all beings and consciousness can, as is demonstrated on this planet.

The Concept of Subrealities - Part 1

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Alex,

I have to say, you ask very GOOD questions. I deeply appreciate good questions. It's like having a good checkers partner. (I love checkers.) Simple and complex all in one.

Alex Wrote:

Ok, another question for discussion, I thought of :)

You mentioned your concept of sub-realities, which I am pretty sure I understand fairly well.

You expressed your driving force to live without being within other peoples' sub-realities. After a couple days of reflecting on this, I want to ask,

1) How can you know you aren't in a sub-reality?

2) And if you can't then what is the point of trying to escape all sub-realities? (well you can answer this, even if you believe you CAN know)

3) And, since for me pure happiness is the purpose, does being in a sub-reality even matter towards The Purpose of pure happiness?

Andrew Responds:

1) You can know. This is what my Bigger Self and I are actively and aggressively hashing out with OURSELVES. LOL. In my case, my deepest DESIRE, and I have been reading your thread about "What I believe." (great stuff), is FREEDOM. This was my stated intention before this life. This is what I wanted beyond anything else. From all the lifetimes I lived before, and all the previous incarnations of Andrew Wilcox, I wanted freedom. I have lived some "beyond imagination" lifetimes. I have led planets. I have destroyed worlds. But I WANT freedom. What I am discovering is that this desire for "freedom", was stemming from my interaction and enmeshment with others. This is way to broad an understanding to put into even a full book, for me. Hmmmmm...

2) I can know. So this question is a bit backwards for me, but I'll answer the original intent of the question. I don't wish to escape ALL subrealities. In fact, creating subrealities is QUITE FUN, and there are non-physical beings with whom I am interacting, where we intentionally and deliberately create joyful, blissful, subrealties, for all involved. Beings CAN and DO create selfish subrealties for the purpose of ensnaring others (Ehemem, Allbedamneded). My goal then, is to BE ALERT and PAY ATTENTION to the subrealities I may be invited to enter. In truth, each person's personal perspective of me is a subrealityty, but not everyone DEMANDS I agree with them.

I'm not a big fan of the Jes-ter. Heheh... clever. But the Jes-ter used to NOT be able to heal people unless they "believed", unless they "handed their power over on a golden platter".

For example, if I enter an intimate relationship with someone who even just harbors a remote doubt that I might be mentally ill, they will present this subreality to me on a constant basis, even if it's not directly on their minds. And I will be constantly having to say, "No, No, No. That's not who I am." This is what is happening on the "I AM 2 pointing like Mad!" thread. The "abusers" are demanding that I agree to their subreality, their perception of me. I refuse. I AM Who I AM. People not centered within themselves, not connected to who they are, NEED agreement. They need that power and they need that control. Someone centered within themselves, following themselves, connected to themselves, can be blissfully happy even when the whole world disagrees. This is freedom for me. Joining subreality, especially a collective, simply to get agreement (i.e. "love"), in my perspective is absolute death. It's worse than death. I have given my SELF away.

So long as one is allow SELF, it doesn't matter. For me it matters, because of Who I AM, and where my consciousness is within its OWN development. I like my SELF. I like my individualness. I like my personality. I like my conscious perspective, and I can choose to keep it. Now, in my perspective, there are others. There are definitely others, that don't always have intentions that are joyful and blissful to me, which is evident even within the above thread. The physical circumstances are a mirror of what exists in non-physical. Everyone I'm interacting with, including you, is a non-physical being, and we're pretending to be physical, but we are still actually non-physical. The non-physical communication happens first, and then the physical details get played out.

I'm becoming more and more aware of the, what I call, psychic agreements being made, before the circumstances actually happen. I know what the replies to my posts will be, especially for people on the attack, BEFORE I hit submit. LOL. I'm planning my posts, sometimes, four days ahead, because I'm just watching the other people thrash about. I know where they're at. I know what they're thinking about me. I know what they're planning. It's very funny. In your case, you don't have any direct intentions toward me. You are simply thinking and expressing yourself and sharing, that's the word, sharing YOURSELF. So, your posts are always a pleasant surprise. They don't get tripped on the radar so to speak, because the intentions are pure.

Alex Wrote:

My answers:
1) I'm not sure how you can know. Perhaps your Bigger You is pulling you through the different layers of sub-realities, but how can you know you have reached absolute freedom from them... Jury is out on this one for me.

Andrew Responds:

There are knowables. I EXIST. This is the foundation of ABSOLUTE reality. I THINK. I CHOOSE. And so on... There is a fundamental logic of self. There is a fundamental set of knowables that can be observed and then inferred from conscious self awareness.

I am by no means suggesting that this is important for anyone, or is THE WAY to go. It's just the way I WANT, because I WANT FREEDOM. I want to know ME in my fullest potential as an existent being.

Here's the deal. Our Bigger Selves have made choices and have "beliefs". I think I'll stop there. Never mind.

Alex Wrote:

2) I think the point would be that purer levels of sub-realities may be more conducive to pure happiness

3) I don't think it matters towards The Purpose of pure happiness, YET follow me here. By entering pure happiness your core, or your Bigger You will tend to pull you out of sub-realities naturally.

Andrew Responds:

Yes. I agree. By connecting to self, we will eventually... EVENTUALLY... exit all subrealities, but this could be a VERY long time, for some people, because they are CHOOSING adamantly to believe in a subreality (i.e Allbedamneded is the highest. Therefore, the smartest. Therefore, better than me.). Most religions fall into that category to some degree. For example, a being, even a Bigger Being that believes there is a god above themselves, will find and follow that god even in death, and eventually reincarnate (in some dimension) based upon interaction with that god. That "god" may or may not have their best intentions at heart. That "god" may be an out and out liar. That "god" may actually be doing everything in its power to keep them a slave to that subreality. It happens. No big deal. Eventually... in a galaxy far, far, away... they might figure it out and free themselves... maybe.

So. I'm NEVER saying my way is THE WAY. I'm saying, through my own experience and perception, I'm seeking freedom, and this is what I'm finding and what is working for me. And, as we have already discussed, I have NO IDEA what will work for another, because there's no way I can know their beliefs, choices, perspectives, intentions, whatever. No promises from me. They could have had the intention to always be the one that anything I say fails for. Doh! I could waste my whole life trying and everything I said would fail for them. Whatever.

This is getting long, so I'll answer your next post in another post.

Please append, "in my opinion", to the above post. (This is for the stupid ones.)

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Be Beautiful - Part 1

This kid inspires me. Be beautiful. His life is deliberate. His message has been heard by more than mine.

Cranberry Juice

Alex Baranosky just posed another interesting question.

I'm pulling comments and questions that make me think, and I find interesting, to the front, and this does NOT mean that comments posted in the past that were not pulled to the front were not as interesting. I just started this practice, so this is how I will operate going forward. This also does NOT mean that comments not pulled to the front will be ignored or go unanswered, or are not WORTHY and VALUABLE and GOOD. I believe ALL meaningful conversation is good.

I'm pondering ways of creating a space where meaningful dialog can take place that is free from abuse for ALL members, and has nicer features than this blog comment (no edit) bullshit.

I believe all members have the right to have profiles and be able to link to whatever they're about. I believe that is important. You are contributing to the whole, you deserve to make yourself known. I'm not jiggy with any of the known forums as their are abuse potentials there, as is evident.

Ok... back to Alex's fascinating query, which goes back almost a year perhaps.

Alex Baranosky Wrote:

Hi Andrew,

I wanted to ask you something, and didn't know where to post it, so here seemed good a place as any.

I am thinking back to the story about when you were guided to sort of gargle with cranberry juice.

Here's the food for thought question:

(Or at least it would be good clarification) Why did your flow/guidance have you gargle with cranberry juice if the world is only thoughts?

Clearly at least at that time in your life, your flow specifically wanted whatever was in the cranberry juice.

Do you believe your flow would have responded differently now? (Mar 29, 2009)?

There's no way to know what my Bigger Self would lead me to do now. I have thought this for some time, since you posted it. The trouble with direct experience is that it is only meaningful within a given context of interpretation. After the event happened the first time, I had a particular interpretation. From my current point of view, I have another interpretation, which I will go into.

This may be long... LOL. Ahh... the endless babble of me.

Cranberry Juice is a thought too. Some thoughts are perceivable within the context of the thoughts of physical senses. Some thoughts are not. The computer you are sitting at is a thought. Hmmm... that's my foundational working assumption... ok, jumping here.

This is a big jump. If you watch the movie Dune, the first one, not the new one. The one by David Lynch done in 1984. There is a scene where Paul (Muad'Dib) fully connects to himself. While this is happening, and I don't have the exact words, because I don't have the movie, he says something like, "The worm is the spice. The spice is the worm. The worm is the spice. The spice is the worm." Something like that.

Now, believe me or not, find me mentally ill or not, Dune was a real reality. I was there. It happened over 6 million years ago on mars. That's why there are faint traces of a face there today. What Paul is understanding in that moment is that the physical (the worm) is intrinsically the same as, a function of, ONE WITH, consciousness (the spice). They are one and the same thing. The are the same thing and one. Now, when I say One, I do no mean WE ARE ONE. We are NOT one. You are you. I AM ME. But, my physical space is one with my consciousness. My body is a function of my consciousness and not the other way around.

Now... going back to the cranberry juice. That may or may not work for anyone else. Heck, it might never work for me again. That was an experience. There are several KEY components of that experience. Back then, I still had some belief that effort (effort is different than action), was required to get what I wanted. I also still believed there was some separation between "the worm" and "the spice". No matter what I did, the phlegm remained a problem. This is also during the period where my Bigger Self was beginning to wake me up and reestablish trust and flowing.... connection.... deeper connection.

So... what did my Bigger Self do. My Bigger Self flowed me to buy something that I WOULD NEVER BUY. Back then, I didn't just dislike Cranberry Juice. I pretty much hated it. I would NEVER drink it voluntarily, let alone actually buy some, knowing full-well I wouldn't so much as take a sip. But... I did. I bought it, because my flow was being adamant that I do so. I could not walk away from that Cranberry Juice in the store. If I tried, it felt like a rushing river pulling me back to it. I was there in conflict for quite some time. LOL. I was resisting MYSELF, because MYSELF didn't make sense to my little perspective. Finally. I allowed, MYSELF. I went with MY FLOW.

I went home, not thinking about the Cranberry Juice, until much later than evening when I was led to take it out of the fridge and pour a FULL glass. Almost spilling over it was so full. And, I'm thinking... fuck. Please, don't make me drink this.

Well, I didn't have to drink it. I had to sit and HOLD it it my mouth and tilt my head back and let it slowly run down the back of my throat, which caused me to choke, and cough, and choke, and cough on nearly every sip. And, at the time I had NO IDEA WHY I was doing this. I was just following my flow. I was just going where my Bigger Self was leading me, because there was enough trust there to know that my Bigger Self KNEW how to get me where I wanted to go. I finished that glass, and had to pour ANOTHER one, which I had to do the same thing with. And, after that one, my Bigger Self took me and started to have me pour a third one, but the stopped, because it was just a joke. My Bigger Self likes jokes, just like I do. We are one. My Bigger Self is ME, but with a broader perspective.

So... nothing happened. I was like, "Ok. Whatever." I woke up the next morning, just like always. I went about my routine, and then at some point it dawned on me... no phlegm. My throat was perfectly clear, which it hadn't been in a very long time. Fascinating, and then it all dawned on me, about the Cranberry Juice. Oh!

My Bigger Self had led me to do something, that I didn't want to do, that got me to where I wanted to be. And to be honest, "drinking" the Cranberry Juice wasn't really that bad. It was my projected FEAR of the experience. I had a fear of Cranberry Juice. Now, I find that it's actually pretty good, sometimes.

This experience is a metaphor for getting what you want through physical circumstances that APPEAR to be unwanted. I have been through many subsequent experiences that most people would firmly believe are unwanted, but from my connection to ME, and my following of ME, every single one of those experiences has been HIGHLY, HIGHLY, HIGHLY, HIGHLY beneficial to ME. My current circumstances are HIGHLY beneficial to me, even though most people would firmly believe they are unwanted, they are bad, they are "universal" punishment for being evil and not talking nicely to the idiots.

I think that's all I have to say about that, currently, but I want to add, that the sound technology in Dune is build-able with technology currently available on the planet today. The only "problem" with that technology is that only someone one with themselves can use it, and perhaps we should.

Marcel's Teachings - Part 1

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Marcel is a being that I appreciate and respect. Marcel is a dog. Marcel is not less than me. I am not superior to Marcel, simply because I hold the lease occasionally. Marcel is a consciousness that is deliberately choosing a set of physical circumstances for his own personal reasons and joys. Marcel is a GREAT TEACHER. I value the wisdom Marcel has made me aware of.

Be Alert

Pay Attention

Growl

Bark

Bite

Go for the Throat

Marcel will do WHATEVER it takes to stop pain and feel good. If another being forces Marcel to escalate his behavior, he will not feel bad about killing them the next day. He won't sit around and worry whether he did the right thing or not. He did the right thing in the moment based upon the above scale. There were AMPLE warnings along the way. He growled. He barked. He bit. He killed. The other being could have disengaged at ANY time, based upon the information they were receiving that their presence and/or behavior was unwanted to Marcel. It doesn't matter if their behavior is "socially acceptable" or "holy" or "spiritual". If Marcel arbitrarily decides in his own subject experience that it is unwanted behavior, he will go through this process. This doesn't mean he is asking the other being to change, or to stop doing what they're doing. He's merely suggesting that they stop doing it to him, otherwise he will escalate. It really is a very simple and beautiful wisdom, which I truly admire and am taking to heart.

My Official Theme Song

For all of those of you, who have thought, or do think, or are suggesting that I might have a mental illness. FUCK YOU. You can get out of my life and never come back.

I challenge ANY of you, to sit down and have an intelligent MEANINGFUL conversation about REALITY that is not based in assumption, belief, or personal projected fantasy that has no evidence to support it.

To even believe in mental illness, means you know NOTHING about reality creation, or the fundamental knowable truths of consciousness. FUCK OFF.